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Beyond our Sight – Can we survive physical death? Documentary (video)

Can we survive death ? What is the nature of our consciousness ?
“Beyond Our Sight” is an independant documentary that talks
about near-death experiences, human consciousness,
and the possibility of communication with other dimensions.

A documentary by Anthony Chene

(featured image – wakingtimes.com)

The stages of Awakening – Julie Jurgan

Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfilment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfilment.”
John O’Donohue

It seems as unstoppable some people say – the awakening is near. More and more people get a glimpse of what is wrong with or in the world and they no longer able to turn a blind eye. But they have to look closer – closer into that which is just about to happen in front of them. The truth slowly but steady finds its way in the last and darkest corner to shine a light on what has been hidden for so long.

Yes – the awakening is near. And once you are awake there is no turning back.

Awakening doesn’t happen overnight more or less it happens in different stages dependent on your environment, your own openness and furthermore your personal desire to discover the truth.

The first stage is the Lifting of the Veil

In this stage you start feeling that something is not quiet right in the world. You not only scared of what the media tells you but you finally experience the desire to do some more research. Somehow you feel that you would like to know more, more about all that which is calling you. So it happens that you set out on your personal journey to go looking for the truth.

The second state is the Fight with the shadow

You started on your journey by looking for answers and more information and finally you reach  a state in which your whole world view seems to fall apart. Many things you will discover that you thought were true will turn out to be – only a comforting lie. You will be confronted with a lot of new information of how the world is ruled not only in a political sense but also in a personal sense. You finally realize how the people in power try to take over the world – including you. In a more personal sense you finally become aware to the strings you have yourself attached to. Your relationship, your job, your friends, suddenly everything that has been hidden appears to be in the spotlight of uncomfortable truth. Dare them who can’t stand the truth. Questions such as:

Is that really what I want? Is that the life I was supposed to live? Do I might have a choice?

In this phase an overwhelming feeling of shock and doubts can arise. Suddenly nothing is there to hold on to any more. Who is right, who is wrong? Can that truly be? What if? Is there truly more than the eye can see?

Be aware that…..

Your mind will try to bring you back into what you have believed before. No matter if that has to do with your personal spiritual belief, your view about the world, or you surroundings. You will find yourself fighting with whatever you found – because you are on the edge of waking up and you will be scared to jump.

The third stage is Lost in the Dark

This is the stage in which you will find yourself after you have exhausted yourself mentally or emotionally. You tried to fight the shadows and you have lost. No matter how you turn it. The world is not what it used to be before. You can’t turn away from the pain that is caused by seeing finally with open eyes. The pain is real and it hurts. Yes, it hurts to know all about the things that are not right in the world. It hurts to see people suffer, hungry and dying, feeling that there is nothing you can do about it. Slowly and steady you lose yourself in the dark night of the soul

I truly believe that we again and again come through these stages on our spiritual soul evolution. We again and again wander, swirl, drown and get lost in the dark. Our very own darkness. The feeling that we only can do so much but there is so much that needs to be done. Thoughts like – “Who am I that I can truly make a difference? No matter what I do, I will never be able to stop that or this.”

You suffer from your own inability to understand the course of time. We suffer on our own insecurities and self-doubt. We are lost – there is no way to turn.

Every person who wakes up has the desire to make a difference in the world and will have these feelings once in a while. Because the Awaken do see everything that is broken and need to be fixed, everything that is sick and needs to be healed. Everything that needs improvement will find its way into the life of the visionary, the dreamer, the revolutionary, the healer and the man with an open heart.

This is the price we pay when we awaken – we see, feel, hear, think more than before. This is when we do wander restless through the darkness in search of (our own) light.

The fourth state is Running back to sleep

Once we wandered long enough in the darkness we finally come to a point in which we get fed up. Asking ourselves why we ever set out on this journey? Why we have chosen this path, asked these questions or ever answered the call within our soul to seek the truth.

We don’t understand why this life should be worth living for if there is nothing we can do about it. We are angry with everyone around us, everyone that still believes the lies and is unable to see. Everyone who just seems not to care. But also we often find ourselves in a spiritual crisis. Wondering why we opened our heart and now all the pain comes in. It’s not even our pain but maybe the pain of others who suffer. Now we feel as much as they feel and there is nothing we can do about it. How much we wished we could just go back to sleep. Press Reset and pretend we haven’t explored, read, seen and experienced all that we did.

Thinking if we only would close our eyes and hearts again we could forget but we can’t and still try to run desperately back to sleep.

The fifth stage Befriending the pain

As much as we tried to go back to sleep it won’t work. Once we are awaken we are awake and there is no turning back.

This realization will hurt. As it is so absolute – so real.

It might hurt so much because we finally are confronted with our own helplessness. With the huge emotions of “The world is in a terrible state” and “Who am I to do anything about it?”

You are not alone. It really doesn’t matter if you are already awake or you still in your little cocoon of self comfort, that is ready to be cracked open. So the reality finally can come an and show you the next step. The next step that is necessary to come into your own, onto the next level of your soul evolution. To realize that you are not alone and furthermore you don’t need to change the world all by yourself.

Because the awakening happens to all of us. On some days we feel it more and on other days it seems to be less. But it is happening and the only thing we can do is to befriend ourselves with the pain. Furthermore to reach out and hold each other in that pain – is the only way to heal.

A crisis is a chance for change. 

I want to believe that the awakening only happens to break down the barriers we have created in the mindset of the “Me”. The illusion that we are alone and everything that we do is not significant in the world. I truly want to believe that only if we experience our own insignificance we come to realize out true potential. Our true power and even more we will come to understand that what we say, do and think does matter and will have a major impact on the world. Because we are all connected and once we see that – we step out of the helplessness into the connectedness we all so desperately long for. May we come to realize to wish for others what we wish for ourselves. And day by day we change the world a bit because we do wish that for ourselves.

May you be blessed.

May you be loved.

May you be happy.

May you be safe.

– Buddhist Blessing

IMG_20151206_132341Julie Jurgan the Founder of Blossom of the Soul,  is an inspirational writer, medium and healer. She offers her spiritual guidance to everyone in need. If you would like to book a session with Julie..please have a look here.

Or send directly an email to julie@blossomofthesoul.org

(featured image – dreamcatcherreality.com)

Julie – Home (Inspirational Short Story)

The train slowly ran into the station while the raindrops kept falling down from the sky like the last day on earth has just arrived. I’m hesitating in trying to reach the door when an old saying from John Gray came to my mind: „We only part to meet again“.
Now I know, what John wanted to say with this. Lost in thought, I opened the door and felt this clumsy loneliness crawling up my back. It has been a while since my last visit, time doesn’t wait for anyone and I have been so busy myself.

There was no choice about today, if I would like to go or not. I had to even the pain inside my chest is incredible. I try to surppress all that I am feeling while I ran down the stairs. my feelings while. I remember every single step as if it has been just yesterday when I used to rush on my way to work.
Today, I can take my time. Time now has a different meaning to me. It doesn’ t rinse through my fingers like sand. Nothing I need to accomplish anymore, nothing for me to worry about. The basics just slowed me down and allow them to do so. Far to long I was heading in the wrong direction without even knowing it. I might felt something but I didn’t wanted to know, I just wanted to do what I thought needed to be done.

The moment I reach the basement floor I am able to sense the course of time and for the glimpse of a moment I am there again. Things have changed, I have changed and everything will forever change. The walls are renovated and full of flaggings now, there is an elevator and the trees had to disappear because of a bicycle rack.
Life is always about improvements, the old needs to go to make space for the new this is what they taught me. And I believed them till today. I believed in things so easily without questioning them that I am not sure anymore if this is the right way. „The modern time has arrived and asked me to come back here again!“
The dawn of a new day just laid in front of me, somewhere, a dog is barking and there are just a few cars running on the street.

The church bell rang for the full hour and I am curious looking around, astonished about the place I once have known. Everything has changed, where there was grassland, big new houses appeared, nearly palaces. Huge cars are parking in their gateways. Shallow lights shimmering through the windows and families are sitting at the tables and having breakfast in the comfy of their own home.

Family, I remember that feeling of belonging somewhere. Loving so deeply that it nearly hurts and parting away when things suddenly change. It is the course of time they say, children grow up, leave the house, you change yourself over there years and suddenly you wake up and wonder where all the time has gone?

I lose myself in memories of old days, stories from the past a time that I used to know. But there are still things that somehow seem never to change. They have been there for hundreds of years and might be there for the next centuries. I almost reached the church with its gentle silence enthroning on the top of the hill.
I take a deep breath as if I would greet an old friend. We humans are so vulnerable in the fading of time, we need to have these stability. Something to hold on to, something that does not change while everything around us is forever changing.
For a short moment I need to close my eyes and feel deep what is inside of me and it seemed as it were yesterday when I left this world. My feet feel heavy and every step feels like more resisting than the one before. I hesitate, because I can see all the people standing there. Im reminded on all that pain, the emptiness, all this fighting, the misunderstanding because they are unable to see the truth.

Covered in black, hiding their faces behind tears of anger, fear and desperation. Trying to understand and to let go. I can hear their whimper, their supplication and I feel so helpless. Slowly step by step I get closer to the graveyard. It has been such a long time, since I was here last. Even I didn’t understand what was going on at that time. But today, I know, the truth lies behind the world unseen. But even if people would open their eyes they wouldn’t believe me. Sometimes we need to experience and then we know. What should I tell them?
There, I can see him, standing at the back, looking at the process from a distance. His eyes are glacing and I know exactly what he feels. I have been there, I have done that. It takes some time to realize, to accept and to see the truth behind all this drama. He is confused and doesn’t understand how quick things can change, from one second to the other. Here today, gone tomorrow. That is the way of life. But even how hard we try to understand, will we ever be able accept or even welcome it?

I can feel his sorrow, because he knows that he has caused all this pain. People are crying just because of him. I don’t want to scare him, gently I try to find my way. It has been a while since we last met and I am not sure about his reaction. Every single step felt to me like an endless echo in eternity without knowing if he would understand. I try to calm myself down, I tend to overthink stuff and I have never done that before. Suddenly he turns around and looked at me with fear in his eyes. I’m trying to smile and hide my true feelings, as if our meeting would not be something strange.

“Dear God, how much I missed him and now he stands in front of me!” I do not know if I should laugh or cry. There is so much he does not know yet, there is so much to learn.
And I wish I could hold this moment forever, my dearest son.

„Hello“ I am trying to sound relaxed, while my thoughts are turning upside down.

He looked at me, as he could just look right through me.

„Dad?“ he paused for a moment as if there was anything to hold on to „But I don´t understand…You…are….“ I can feel his confusion and understand him so very well, it was the same feeling I had, when it happened to me.

„I know my son…please don´t have any fear“
Confused and desperate he starred at the funeral party as they would make a silly joke.

„But Dad…how can all this be?“ his voice was shaking.

„Dad…I don´t understand all this…you are gone…for such a long time…you are…“ he didn’t come any further and bursted in tears. I put my arms around him and whispered in his ear.


He nodded ashamed as if death was something better not to talk about. My eyes looked at the funeral party and at the mourners. I was able see my beloved Marie, we were together for over 30 years. I never loved someone more than her she was my everything, the one I wanted to grow old with. But she had to let me go and I still don’t know how she was able to keep on living. I couldn’t go on like this. When I was diagnosed with cancer, she was the one who kept strong and positive no matter how I felt. She was there when I wanted to dissappear. I caused her so much pain and wasted so many years of her life. We were so young and it seemed not fair. But there is always a bigger plan which we often don’t know about. Things happen out of our control, out of the area of understanding and acceptance. Sometimes it seems things happen for no reason. During those times we reach the point of your own helplessness, which makes us humans and so vulnerable. Today, I am standing here on the other side, at the grave of my own son. And it is painful for me as well, because I can´t tell my bereaved wife the truth. How brave she looks as she can carry all this pain on her shoulders. First I had to go, now it is our son, why is life so hard sometimes?

„Dad! I don’t understand. Is that just a dream?“ his voice was still shaking.

„My dear son….“ helplessly I fished for the right words. „Can you remember what happened? I mean, do you remember the accident you had?“

He squint his eyes.

„Yes…yes..I do. I was driving the motorbike…suddenly it started to rain….I tried to reduce speed and thought I could go around the bend….and…this wonderful light…I could not see…“ he stopped.

For a very short moment everything was covered in silence, a silence which makes you feel that something is missing. A silence in which you suddenly understand, realize before the truth hits you with all its pain.

„You crashed into the bend….“
He nod guilty. „Everything happened so quick and…but….it did not hurt, Dad! I can remember the ambulance taking me to the hospital. And I can see Mum, she was crying while she was sitting next to me…I am so sorry. I tried to hug her, but it did not work. I was not able to reach out to her…Dad? What is this all about?“

„Well, you are on the other side now.“

„Other side?“ he replied „What you mean with other side?“

„My son, you are dead.“

I could feel the devastation in his voice „I am dead? But I am still here…I don’t understand, Dad!“

I smiled gently „You are still here, because your soul can not die. You just entered the spiritual dimension, the Spiritual World“

„Really? What is the spiritual dimension? And why has no one told me that before?“

„The Spiritual World is the Dimension you enter, when you leave your material body. Your soul is immortal. You can remember everything that happened here down on earth, everything is stored in your consciousness. Your soul is your immortal consciousness. And most of the people do not know about that. Even I had to learn this new truth, when I left this world.“

I paused for a moment „My dear son, can you remember the day I left this world? When you walked home with Mum and you were talking about me? When you entered your room at home and you talked to me, how much you missed me and you wished me farewell?“

He´s starred at me „Yes…of course…!“

„Can you remember the small bird, sitting outside on the tree and singing that wonderful song. You just opened the window and listen to him and suddenly a warm breeze was fondling your face?“


„Yes, it was me, telling you, that I am fine! I never left you my son, I have always been with you. As my soul is still alive and so is yours.“

He smiled at me and I felt a huge burden falling off his heart. „Is this heaven, Dad?“ his eyes were sparkling.

I kissed him on his forehead, embracing my wings around him: „It is so much more! Come my son, I will take you home“

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