The stages of Awakening – Julie Jurgan

Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfilment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfilment.”
John O’Donohue

It seems as unstoppable some people say – the awakening is near. More and more people get a glimpse of what is wrong with or in the world and they no longer able to turn a blind eye. But they have to look closer – closer into that which is just about to happen in front of them. The truth slowly but steady finds its way in the last and darkest corner to shine a light on what has been hidden for so long.

Yes – the awakening is near. And once you are awake there is no turning back.

Awakening doesn’t happen overnight more or less it happens in different stages dependent on your environment, your own openness and furthermore your personal desire to discover the truth.

The first stage is the Lifting of the Veil

In this stage you start feeling that something is not quiet right in the world. You not only scared of what the media tells you but you finally experience the desire to do some more research. Somehow you feel that you would like to know more, more about all that which is calling you. So it happens that you set out on your personal journey to go looking for the truth.

The second state is the Fight with the shadow

You started on your journey by looking for answers and more information and finally you reach  a state in which your whole world view seems to fall apart. Many things you will discover that you thought were true will turn out to be – only a comforting lie. You will be confronted with a lot of new information of how the world is ruled not only in a political sense but also in a personal sense. You finally realize how the people in power try to take over the world – including you. In a more personal sense you finally become aware to the strings you have yourself attached to. Your relationship, your job, your friends, suddenly everything that has been hidden appears to be in the spotlight of uncomfortable truth. Dare them who can’t stand the truth. Questions such as:

Is that really what I want? Is that the life I was supposed to live? Do I might have a choice?

In this phase an overwhelming feeling of shock and doubts can arise. Suddenly nothing is there to hold on to any more. Who is right, who is wrong? Can that truly be? What if? Is there truly more than the eye can see?

Be aware that…..

Your mind will try to bring you back into what you have believed before. No matter if that has to do with your personal spiritual belief, your view about the world, or you surroundings. You will find yourself fighting with whatever you found – because you are on the edge of waking up and you will be scared to jump.

The third stage is Lost in the Dark

This is the stage in which you will find yourself after you have exhausted yourself mentally or emotionally. You tried to fight the shadows and you have lost. No matter how you turn it. The world is not what it used to be before. You can’t turn away from the pain that is caused by seeing finally with open eyes. The pain is real and it hurts. Yes, it hurts to know all about the things that are not right in the world. It hurts to see people suffer, hungry and dying, feeling that there is nothing you can do about it. Slowly and steady you lose yourself in the dark night of the soul

I truly believe that we again and again come through these stages on our spiritual soul evolution. We again and again wander, swirl, drown and get lost in the dark. Our very own darkness. The feeling that we only can do so much but there is so much that needs to be done. Thoughts like – “Who am I that I can truly make a difference? No matter what I do, I will never be able to stop that or this.”

You suffer from your own inability to understand the course of time. We suffer on our own insecurities and self-doubt. We are lost – there is no way to turn.

Every person who wakes up has the desire to make a difference in the world and will have these feelings once in a while. Because the Awaken do see everything that is broken and need to be fixed, everything that is sick and needs to be healed. Everything that needs improvement will find its way into the life of the visionary, the dreamer, the revolutionary, the healer and the man with an open heart.

This is the price we pay when we awaken – we see, feel, hear, think more than before. This is when we do wander restless through the darkness in search of (our own) light.

The fourth state is Running back to sleep

Once we wandered long enough in the darkness we finally come to a point in which we get fed up. Asking ourselves why we ever set out on this journey? Why we have chosen this path, asked these questions or ever answered the call within our soul to seek the truth.

We don’t understand why this life should be worth living for if there is nothing we can do about it. We are angry with everyone around us, everyone that still believes the lies and is unable to see. Everyone who just seems not to care. But also we often find ourselves in a spiritual crisis. Wondering why we opened our heart and now all the pain comes in. It’s not even our pain but maybe the pain of others who suffer. Now we feel as much as they feel and there is nothing we can do about it. How much we wished we could just go back to sleep. Press Reset and pretend we haven’t explored, read, seen and experienced all that we did.

Thinking if we only would close our eyes and hearts again we could forget but we can’t and still try to run desperately back to sleep.

The fifth stage Befriending the pain

As much as we tried to go back to sleep it won’t work. Once we are awaken we are awake and there is no turning back.

This realization will hurt. As it is so absolute – so real.

It might hurt so much because we finally are confronted with our own helplessness. With the huge emotions of “The world is in a terrible state” and “Who am I to do anything about it?”

You are not alone. It really doesn’t matter if you are already awake or you still in your little cocoon of self comfort, that is ready to be cracked open. So the reality finally can come an and show you the next step. The next step that is necessary to come into your own, onto the next level of your soul evolution. To realize that you are not alone and furthermore you don’t need to change the world all by yourself.

Because the awakening happens to all of us. On some days we feel it more and on other days it seems to be less. But it is happening and the only thing we can do is to befriend ourselves with the pain. Furthermore to reach out and hold each other in that pain – is the only way to heal.

A crisis is a chance for change. 

I want to believe that the awakening only happens to break down the barriers we have created in the mindset of the “Me”. The illusion that we are alone and everything that we do is not significant in the world. I truly want to believe that only if we experience our own insignificance we come to realize out true potential. Our true power and even more we will come to understand that what we say, do and think does matter and will have a major impact on the world. Because we are all connected and once we see that – we step out of the helplessness into the connectedness we all so desperately long for. May we come to realize to wish for others what we wish for ourselves. And day by day we change the world a bit because we do wish that for ourselves.

May you be blessed.

May you be loved.

May you be happy.

May you be safe.

– Buddhist Blessing

IMG_20151206_132341Julie Jurgan the Founder of Blossom of the Soul,  is an inspirational writer, medium and healer. She offers her spiritual guidance to everyone in need. If you would like to book a session with Julie..please have a look here.

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