Butterflies are one of the most precious beings here on this planet, their beauty, elegance and their vulnerability have inspired many poets, writers, musicians and artists over the centuries. The butterfly is a symbol for transformation, lightness and freedom. And even today we find the symbol of butterflies on many occasions such as duvet, clothing and all sorts of decorations for our homes. As butterflies are associated with joy, happiness and the season of spring. Timeless beauty combined with colorful expression seem not to have lost its uplifting power.
How often we heard the story about the magical transformation of a caterpillar into a beautiful butterfly. Some of us might even witnessed this amazing process how a butterfly works itself out of its cocoon and spread its wings to fly high up into the sky. As a child I was always astonished by these wonderful beings, they were so hard to catch and even harder to keep. That is why we watch them from a distance and enjoy their dances with the wind.
When I got older I experienced freedom as a very important part of my life. I realized that I would not be able to fit into a system that was created by others nor do anything that would not match with my inner feelings. I learnt the lesson of compromising and adaption and the more I walked that road the more I felt myself building my own cocoon. A cocoon that would protect me from the outside world which was not interested in what is going on inside.
Building a cocoon can be a silent protest to protect yourself from the hardship of the world around you. Necessary to keep that precious, vulnerable heart alive that so much wanted just to be itself.
I believe that all of us created, silently and slowly this cocoon around our hearts and souls. With each painful experience we put another layer around our heart, telling ourselves that this or that will never ever happen again. Over the time we become hard and resistant, we call it survival and many of us turn into self-destructive behaviour or accept life as a burden. Unable to see clearly, we close our hearts to the endless life-force. We would rather feel kind of save where we are, than taking the risk of breaking through the cocoon to see if there is something else.
But somehow we do feel that there is something, something is calling us to come out of the cocoon.
There are many spiritual teachers who say you need to live in the Now, the present moment. And they probably right but is that not just another cocoon they created? An illusion to say there is no past, there is no future. But deep inside we do feel our story, our history and all that has shaped us. We can’t just wash it away or act if it has never happened. It is there and it wants to be recognised.
How can we become a butterfly if we deny to be a caterpillar in the first place?
I do believe that is time for us to release layer after layer rather than breaking through the cocoon. It needs time as the cocoon wasn’t build in a day, so it will take time to take it away. Taking away your cocoon has its own pace and it will require a lot of strength but this is the process of being transformed and re-born. Just being hidden in a cocoon doesn’t mean you gave it all up. Nor does it mean you don’t care, it only means that you will need time to work yourself through it.
Once you accept yourself and the cocoon of the past around you, you might get scared. Scared of opening up again, scared that nothing good ever will happen to you. Your mind will start to tell you that you will never ever be a beautiful butterfly, that you can’t fly and dreams are only for people to escape from reality.
Even when you made it through the cocoon, released all that held you back you will experience something I call: “A broken wing”-feeling. This describes a situation, circumstances you will be confronted with in which you think that you are not capable of doing things. You worked yourself all through the cocoon, did all your energetic work, cleansed, cleared, healed and suddenly you realize that you can’t fly. You feel that all this work was for nothing and you not sure where to go from there.
This is a normal process and probably all of us will come to that point, especially just in the moment before the final stage. Your first flight. Bouncing back into a feeling that all this hard work on yourself was for nothing, you don’t feel confident enough, fear is creeping in again and all is too much.
Spread your wings and fly
The butterfly doesn’t question itself, nor its ability to fly. The butterflies purpose is to become a butterfly after being a caterpillar and gone through the process of cocooning. The same is with you, following your inner calling, your purpose requires work from your side and when you nearly there, just jump and let the wind carry you the last bit.
This is the story of the butterfly, this is the story of all of us. We all got the same opportunities but it is your choice if you want to become a butterfly and use your wings to fly!